They say that if you can’t talk, then write but what if feel like no one is really listening regardless of whether it’s written or said. I’ve got so much that I want to say but can’t write it so it makes sense to me or you. I don’t need someone to fix me orContinue reading “They say that if you can’t talk, write”
Tag Archives: loneliness
145. I really shouldn’t write at night.
Last night I did one of those ‘blogging while not really conscious’ things again. Re-reading it this morning, I was just grateful that I did post it too. The post was called, I don’t think I’ll ever truly let anyone in ever again. It was about 11pm, I’d just gone to bed, I had putContinue reading “145. I really shouldn’t write at night.”
139. The worse part of depression is the loneliness.
It’s been a couple of months since I’ve posted a blog publicly. It’s been a tough few weeks and some days have been really tough to get through. But I got through them and that’s all that matters. The last few months have taught me many things but most importantly, that things need to change.Continue reading “139. The worse part of depression is the loneliness.”
135. It really shouldn’t be this hard.
I currently feel like a swan on a fast flowing river heading towards really strong rapids. I’m paddling so hard under the water whilst trying to remain composed on top, but I can feel myself floating quickly towards the rapids and not knowing if I will sink or swim. It really shouldn’t be this hardContinue reading “135. It really shouldn’t be this hard.”
130. The pain of depression and trying to be strong.
It’s absolutely exhausting suffering from depression. Fighting against the overwhelming sadness that I have is exhausting. I don’t want to be strong anymore, I want to get better and that involves not being strong all the time. I’m just tired of feeling tired. Depression makes my mind overthink ALL the time so it is exhaustingContinue reading “130. The pain of depression and trying to be strong.”
127. Things I’d like you to know – Please read.
There are loads of things that I’d like you to know about having a mental health condition, especially depression. January is always one of the hardest months for me to get through and this year I feel 100 times worse than normal. Battling my mind every day is exhausting at the best of times, atContinue reading “127. Things I’d like you to know – Please read.”
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115. Loneliness hurts like hell.
Feeling so alone is such a hard place to be. Feeling like no one understands or even wants to start to understand the turmoil inside my head. Feeling broken in a way that can’t be described to others. Desperately needing to get better and to find the help I need but not knowing where thatContinue reading “115. Loneliness hurts like hell.”
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105. One year on.
One year ago today, I wrote my first post, it took me 3 months to write the 2nd. I have written things that I would never have the courage to say in person, but I’ve kept so much hidden still. I have written about thoughts, feelings and emotions that I’ve felt, but I have soContinue reading “105. One year on.”
Protected: 104. When you know things need to change.
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99. Struggling, lonely and numb.
I’ve been struggling for what seems an eternity. However, struggling is so hard to explain to those around me but it’s a quick universal answer. At least it’s a step on from the “I’m fine” response. Struggling is all of the below things but to me it’s mostly loneliness. Needing that one person to checkContinue reading “99. Struggling, lonely and numb.”
Protected: 98. A heavy head day.
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96. It’s ok not to be ok.
Today is world mental health day and for anyone suffering from any mental health condition, please remember that it’s ok to ask for help, it’s ok to talk, it’s ok to take medication if you need it and it’s definitely ok to not be ok every day.
Protected: 93. Feeling broken but numb.
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Protected: 90. The lonely train runner.
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Protected: 80. I’m just tired of being tired.
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Protected: 61. What is the f*#^king point anymore.
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