121. I only wish the nightmares would stop.

I’ve recently been prescribed a new AD which also helps me sleep. Without doubt, they are amazing at doing that. On the weekends I’m getting about 11 hours which earlier on in the year would take me sometimes 3 days to rack up. Yes they leave me feeling a bit drowsy in the mornings but at least I’m sleeping. But the nightmares that feel each nights sleep are awful and I can remember them so vividly each morning. Don’t think that’s help the overwhelming exhaustion I feel each day. Also when I close my eyes to go to sleep it’s like someone is playing clips of horror movies all mixed together on fast forward. I used to be able to use visualization to get to/back to sleep at night but the images are all that feels my eyes now when I close them during the night/day.

One of last nights nightmares was me having a full breakdown at school and just collapsing in a heap and trying to sleep on the floor at the entrance to our building. Someone rang an ambulance and I was taken to hospital in a complete crying/sweating/trying to sleep mess. It was a lot more graphic than that so hopefully that’s not a sign of what’s to come.

I wonder what delights are going to bless me tonight.