Last night I did one of those ‘blogging while not really conscious’ things again. Re-reading it this morning, I was just grateful that I did post it too. The post was called, I don’t think I’ll ever truly let anyone in ever again. It was about 11pm, I’d just gone to bed, I had putContinue reading “145. I really shouldn’t write at night.”
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141. Grief
They say that grief gets easier over time, I don’t know if that’s true but for me, it’s still as raw as day 1. For me, my grief journey had been really messy (and definitely didn’t follow the 5 stages I’d been promised). I’m not the person I was a few years ago, I waste moneyContinue reading “141. Grief”
139. The worse part of depression is the loneliness.
It’s been a couple of months since I’ve posted a blog publicly. It’s been a tough few weeks and some days have been really tough to get through. But I got through them and that’s all that matters. The last few months have taught me many things but most importantly, that things need to change.Continue reading “139. The worse part of depression is the loneliness.”
130. The pain of depression and trying to be strong.
It’s absolutely exhausting suffering from depression. Fighting against the overwhelming sadness that I have is exhausting. I don’t want to be strong anymore, I want to get better and that involves not being strong all the time. I’m just tired of feeling tired. Depression makes my mind overthink ALL the time so it is exhaustingContinue reading “130. The pain of depression and trying to be strong.”
127. Things I’d like you to know – Please read.
There are loads of things that I’d like you to know about having a mental health condition, especially depression. January is always one of the hardest months for me to get through and this year I feel 100 times worse than normal. Battling my mind every day is exhausting at the best of times, atContinue reading “127. Things I’d like you to know – Please read.”
124. When numbness feels worse than sadness.
Feeling numb to everything feels worse than it does to feel sad. At least with sadness, there’s hope. With numbness there’s nothing, good or bad. It feels like I’m living in limbo, not going anywhere, not feeling anything and not wanting to go on. The numbness can’t be explained to others so there’s no pointContinue reading “124. When numbness feels worse than sadness.”
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Protected: A letter to you.
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Protected: 104. When you know things need to change.
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103.1 Day 1
Day 1 of half term and I’m tired of being tired. I’m tired of the headaches, I’m tired of running, I’m tired of trying to appear stronger than I really am and I’m tired of all the things listed here too. I’m just tired.
99. Struggling, lonely and numb.
I’ve been struggling for what seems an eternity. However, struggling is so hard to explain to those around me but it’s a quick universal answer. At least it’s a step on from the “I’m fine” response. Struggling is all of the below things but to me it’s mostly loneliness. Needing that one person to checkContinue reading “99. Struggling, lonely and numb.”
Protected: 98. A heavy head day.
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Protected: 97. A tired, cloudy Sunday morning.
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Protected: 93. Feeling broken but numb.
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59. 3 years
It’s been a long 3 years. Ironically this post number falls on the same number of my family home. The house in which both of my parents died. I don’t even know where the last 3 years have gone. In a way it feels like an eternity and in equal measures, I remember it allContinue reading “59. 3 years”
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