I may look ok, maybe you think I am getting better but I’m far from better. I’m exhausted, not going to lie. I’m exhausted from trying to be the person everyone wants me to be but it’s not the person I actually am. Recently I’ve been keeping ALOT in, not because I don’t have ears that will listen but because to me those ears are not really listening to what I am saying and so I’ve stopped talking. Is that healthy, most probably not but I don’t really have any other option.
I am just trying to get through each day at the moment but I know I am going to crash again really soon. Therapy last night was another emotional one, they are getting really deep now and I’ve only got 3 sessions left before
The problem is I’ve forgotten who Faye is anymore, because I’ve lived so long now with a mask on that I don’t know who I am, I just know I’m not that person who is in the photos. Who is that strange face that peers back at me from the mirror? I don’t remember being the happy person anymore.
Just me and my lonely mind.co.uk 