I hate half term holidays but equally desperately need them. I just about got through the last term but the energy needed to make it through the last week especially has left me extra exhausted this week. Today therefore I’ve decided to stay in bed all day and let the heavy feeling win.
My head is feeling constantly heavy and cloudy, my body feels heavy and aching, my legs are so painful that it is absolutely killing them to even walk up and down the stairs. They feel like they’ve tuna marathon each day. it’s a tough call as to which is tiredest, my mind or my body.
Trying to work out whether my depression or my anxiety is higher at the moment. My head is feeling so numb at the moment but at the same time racing and overthinking everything.
Stuck in the middle of desperately wanting help but not wanting to disturb anyone. I’ve typed out messages to people and then deleted them because I am desperately trying not to need anyone to help me but knowing that deep down I do.
Oh and I’ve got the joy of therapy to look forward to tonight too and having cried through the last two sessions, tonight is going to be another hard one for me.
Just me and my lonely mind.co.uk 