109. In the end it just all boils down to trust.

My trust is not something I hand out lightly. Trust is something that I think is the foundation of any relationship but is so easily lost.

Trust for me in another person all boils down to attachment issues and my fear of losing even more people who I love in my life.

Trusting anyone enough to let them inside my walls is such a massive thing to me and that is why so very few people are allowed inside, to get the smallest glimpse of who I really am.

You are here because I trust you enough to read what I’ve written in this blog. I thought I could trust you all enough to be honest with me, when I needed it. I hoped that I could trust you with what I’ve said to you in the past.

At the moment I’m in some much emotional pain that I don’t know what to do for the best.

My question at the moment though is, can I continue to trust you to be with me going forward. To be there if I need you to be.