I’ve been struggling for what seems an eternity. However, struggling is so hard to explain to those around me but it’s a quick universal answer. At least it’s a step on from the “I’m fine” response.
Struggling is all of the below things but to me it’s mostly loneliness. Needing that one person to check on me but feeling like a burden for contacting them. Regretting every message I send as soon as I’ve hit send. Thinking that no one wants to waste their time on me, that no one cares.
Why is my head so fucked up, why can’t I escape the thoughts whirling around inside my head and the jumble of feelings inside my heart.
I’m constantly exhausted by just daily living but especially the daily living of the fake life that I lead.
At least the drugs are working and the numbness has returned.
Just me and my lonely mind.co.uk 